Caught a little bit of Oprah today. It was a show about happiness. I have been exploring that topic already, for the past few months. Actually, has it been a year since I started this blog? This blog was a sort of attempt to find the good things, the happy things in my life. I really have made some progress in this area of my life thanks to Buddhism. The main place that I keep coming back to where I am unhappy is my job. I know I received a big sign at the end of January that it is time to move on from this job. I have learned that I am the one that is making myself miserable in this job, it is not the job itself. I have tried and continue to try to not make myself unhappy in the job. But that has almost become a job in and of itself! And while I got that major sign that it is time to move on, I get these occasional small signs that I should stay. Like despite everything that happened, I still got a raise this year. How did that happen? And I know the branches that I have been at these past few months have truly appreciated me and my knowledge. I have made a difference at those branches. That makes me feel good. So what do I do? The usual for me. Procrastinate. Nothing. Think about it all but don't do anything. The problem is I don't know where to go. I don't know what job to try and get. What the hell do I want to do with my life? I know abstracts that I want to do but I don't know the job or career. I want to love where I work, I want to love what I do. I want to help people. I would love to work with the weather or space or writing or photography. Maybe I should write and photograph my own book about the weather while I live on the space station! That's it! That's the answer! Man, I am glad I figured that out! Sigh...realistically. I check the national weather services job postings once in a while. And when I am really feeling adventurous, I check the weather channels job postings. I mean that is even in the field I got my degree in, which is just a crazy idea. But who wants to live in Atlanta? Hell no! So help me out here people, universe, god, buddha, guides...I need to figure out what I am passionate about that I would be good at and could make a living doing. That is not too much to ask.
Oh yeah, back to Oprah. The woman on the show quit her job as a VP at a bank on Wall Street, took a 90 % pay cut, and became a trapeze artist. She loves it. Wouldn't give it up for anything. That is cool. I can't afford the 90% pay cut, I only make about $29000 a year as it is. She was probably making 6 figures as VP for a bank. She could afford the pay cut. So that was the cause of this rant. Everyone talks about getting a job doing what you love. What if you don't know what you love? Then what?