Ah, new NIN! Yay! Went to target yesterday and got it on sale. Also bought a little sunflower plant to grow. I think I should plant that today. My original plan was to also get a hair cut today but now I am feeling unmotivated as I sit in front of this computer and wander around the internet.
My thoughts wander back to Pete and his blogs. I am still worried about him. Still no one has heard from Jess and he hasn't talked much about it either. But I know it is tearing him up inside. I wonder if he talks to anyone about it? I could just wring the necks of Greg and Jess. Stupid self centered idiots. Dreamt about Greg last night for the first time in a long time. Dreamt I was almost pleading with him to come back. I tried to remind him of all the good times we had and how much we loved him. It was so surreal in that way that dreams can be. Sometimes we were in a desert/canyon area at night and all of my friends were there. Pete, Shawn, Jess, Greg, Allie, Angie, Jim, Nathan, Mary. Angie sort of stood off to the side. I remember telling Greg I had been pregnant but never told him because I had miscarried. (Not true in real life at all, we never slept together) Must have been some sort of representation of my love and friendship for him and how it has ruptured. I had a quilt that I was working on showing all of the good times we had together. The quilt was incomplete and falling apart. Then other times we were at a huge festival/party. Still nighttime. This party was definitely surreal-it fed into other dreams from last night not related to Greg. But there were bands and carnival rides and bonfires. It was in a big field and woods. I think we were trying to show him how much fun we had together. I don't remember so much from that dream.
There was also a Buddhism part to one of my dreams last night. Something about the Dalai Lama. I remember the maroon and gold, monk colors. That was a very important part too and I can't remember it! Ugh! My sign to get back into my Buddhism studies. Wish I could go to KPC this weekend but I have to work at the Wheel. Maybe when I get out of work on Saturday afternoon I'll take a drive out there. Oh yeah! There was something about singing bowls in the dream! Yay little pieces coming back to me! Saturday I will go to KPC!
Riding lesson this afternoon, yay!